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Keep in mind, I have a poor level of comprehension so this is my first interpretation of Lelouch. Maybe some thoughts might change the more I get into the world? I dunno. But here's what I got: if there's one thing that I took from Code Geass is how to wield your mask and lies.

I have dissociated identities. Multiple personalities. Sometimes I feel like a liar too and maybe I am. I hide myself. Our selves hide themselves too. There are times when I want everything to myself. And there's a part of me that I'm disconnected from - a part that might feel more "pure" or "whole". This isn't the exact same situation as Lelouch but maybe you understand where I'm coming from with this. Maybe.

My case might be special to some but truth is that everybody has a mask to wear. Everybody switches between different personalities all of the time. Everybody lies one way or another. It's how the mind works. The difference is that I'm dissociated or whatever and most people aren't. Most people also don't think about their mind or livelihoods as multiple pieces put together to make a whole.

But not once have I heard of anyone insisting that this kind of state can actually be... good. In a world that favors "consistency", "honesty" and being "genuine" (of course, these traits are ironic when dealing with politics but I won't get into that here) these masks are not our enemy. Rather, our masks are our tools. These tools have potential in creating a better future for ourselves as a whole because they are products of change.

Lelouch taking responsibility for his actions and developing an understanding of himself and the world around him extremely admirable to me. I think about the moments in the anime where his philosophy starts coming together. After S2, I thought to myself, "Why do I like Lelouch?" And it's beccause he is a liar.

Don't get me wrong, I've called Lelouch a "rat bastard" and "little shit weasel" and probably other things throughout the anime. He also went down a journey of self-discovery and came to terms with a reality that most people in a similar position just don't understand. He invites me to explore a deeper part of myself and own it.

Seriously, I think the writers did a great job capturing the kind of personality that he has while somehow not making it too... stigmatizing. Especially when considering the type of world everybody's in which boggles my mind. I feel like the writing direction could've went down any other path and I'm glad that CG is the way it is (even if it's not perfect). Which is honestly a first when it comes to any fictional story that I've encountered so far.

Lelouch is difficult to read which is something that I like about him. He cares for those around him but I think he does a terrible job expressing that care. To him, people don't just lie to manipulate - they also lie to protect something. Something that means a lot to them. He has a tendency to take the blame for things he didn't do.

There are some romance in the story... if you wanna call it that. lol. I mean, the romance with Lelouch is appears to be a mixed bag. I've read that the anime was under time constraints so it's possible that some relationships didn't get as fleshed-out as the writers may have hoped. Still, I like how either some shit happens which kinda ruins any potential or looks like he puts up an emotional barrier.

I view the relationships in the original anime as more of like... the women being attached to a certain part of Lelouch. Lelouch vi Britannia, Lelouch Lamperouge, and Zero. And I find that to be very interesting. Makes me consider how love is built from different perspectives or is built depending on how a person is to them. Sometimes, Lelouch appears to emotionally tune-out or doesn't seem to reciprocate when approached. Like he doesn't want it. Or maybe he wants it but lacks the confidence. It's a feeling that I understand too. I prefer the romantically-awkward or avoidant Lelouch. (On the flip side, some of the official artwork makes Lelouch look like he's eating pussy every day of the week LMAO.)

Idk... Maybe I'm just gay. LOL. Either way, I think it's less "who's gonna be with who" and more showcasing like... Lelouch's influence or importance to others. He is one sad man. He needs to know how much he means to those around him. ;w;

I've never felt so compelled to erect a shrine in a fictional character's name immediately after finishing a story. Like his spirit Geass'd my soul and told me to hurry up and make a shrine. If only I had more money LOL. One day, Your Majesty. He is the first who's given me that particular feeling. And... that's it. I kinda feel embarassed getting to the series this late. Welp. I guess it's never too late.

Maybe if I make a Code Geass page, I'll get into Lelouch more. There's a lot I left out for the sake of keeping this post short lol. All hail Lelouch. To me, he symbolizes the concept as a "mask" and the weight it carries. And change. What a great fucking character. He's not just "edgy" or "crazy". He changes the whole world to me. And I get tired of the "angst" thing anyways. It's just emotion. That man has been through so much, like for real.

EDIT: Oh my god, here are two more things that I love about Lelouch that I forgot to mention...

• He speaks with his hands: I know it's pretty normal for characters to make dramatic gestures and stuff but I feel like Lelouch can't make a single statement without his hands going somewhere. He even makes putting on and removing his eye contacts a work of art and magic.
• He's literally all brain and no brawn: For what he makes up for in intelligence, he lacks in stamina and physical fitness. He's as thin and frail as I am, definitely the last guy left after running a mile in PE, and cannot - for the everlasting fuck of him - pilot a mech. I love how we has weaknesses because it obviously nerfs his concept but it also makes him relatable or human. But the mech thing is so funny to me. It's just a glorified metal coffin at the end of day. It gets shredded moments after appearing on screen. I think partially because Lelouch pilots his mech by using a complicated computer system. He has to type in a bunch of calculations before making his move... Of course. Man, I love him.